Jesus Christ is the central focus point of my life. He is my defining characteristic.
Or at least, He should be.
I want people to look at me & know that Jesus is my Saviour, to be able to tell that I love Him and follow Him and that my heart and soul belong to Him.
But, at the minute, I actually don't feel like that is the case. I don't think that people see Jesus when they look at me, and that's not right.
But it's nothing new. It's nothing that hasn't happened before.
The journey of a Christian is rife with highs and lows. Currently I'm in a bit of a lull, I think. Not quite a low, not quite a high.
It's like being on a Spiritual Rollercoaster. Spiritual highs usually come during, and immediately after, an amazing God-filled event or experience. Something that fills us with passion, and energy, and an amazing thirst for more of God, more of His truth, His love & His presence.
The high may last for a month, maybe even a few months. It's a time when we are so focused, zoned in to Jesus; reading our Bibles constantly, listening to worship, praying without ceasing.
For me in these highs, my prayer journal fills up as I find there is so much more I want to write & talk to God about.
But then come the spiritual lows. And most often, they manage to creep in without anyone noticing.
We skip a bible study. We forget to write, or journal, or pray. We'd prefer a lie in, rather than going to Church.
I'm so guilty of all of these things.
And before you know it, it's been days, perhaps even weeks, since you've last journalled, or read your Bible outside of YF or Church.
I'm so guilty of all of these things.
And before you know it, it's been days, perhaps even weeks, since you've last journalled, or read your Bible outside of YF or Church.
Now obviously, I'm writing all of this from my personal perspective. Please don't think that I'm tarring everyone with the same brush (is that the right saying? I'm unsure!).
I'm not saying that it's like this for everyone. I'm just writing what I know it's like for some of my friends & I.
I'm not saying that it's like this for everyone. I'm just writing what I know it's like for some of my friends & I.
And of course, I think it's terrible. To be in a spiritual low is actually kind of draining. It feels like too much effort to get into Gods Word, and then you feel terrible for thinking that it's too much effort!
As far as I'm aware, no one enjoys being in a spiritual low.
And I know, I know. Our faith can't be tied in with our emotions. Faith should be constant, no matter how we feel on a day to day basis.
We should be on a spiritual high consistently, and it shouldn't be a 'high', it should be the normal state of our relationship with Jesus.
It's all fine & dandy to say that, but in all honesty, sometimes that is so hard.
Life gets in the way. Our jobs/school/family/whatever takes over our time, & it feels like there's just not enough hours in the day to fit Jesus in with everything else.
And that is so backwards.
We shouldn't be trying to squeeze Jesus in...we should be trying to squeeze everything else in around our Cornerstone, Jesus.
So this is my personal challenge; to rouse myself out of this lull, and to share the journey on this blog.
I'm human. I will make mistakes. I'm not perfect.
But my Saviour is, & it is His strength I will rely on.
